[ Dean knows what it's like to be alone. He's been there, done that, lived that life. Maybe he did it with his father in tow when Sammy was away at college and maybe he experienced Hell without a life raft of anyone cushy around so why the fuck is he bitching? He knows, and the words she give in response make him feel like shit because he knows. He's got Sam, he's got Cas, and therefore he's got more than his fair share already and it's shit to say he's got nothing when he's got both of his everything's and then some. They're his whole world, isn't that enough?
Except right now he can't grapple with it and it makes him feel even worse, like he's rotting from the inside out, unable to access the two things he needs most. Makes him feel lost when he's standing with a map, as if the guide book should be telling him the way when all it is, is in another language entirely. ]
Yeah, I know, I know- [ He hangs his head, runs his fingers through his hair in something like apology because like hell is he going to say those words (i'm sorry is reserved for the very few) and yet it's his problem in a nutshell. He's convinced he's running on empty with nothing left to give, that he can't even find himself amongst the two people who know where to look, and he's just so goddamn sorry that there's nothing else he knows how to say. ]
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Except right now he can't grapple with it and it makes him feel even worse, like he's rotting from the inside out, unable to access the two things he needs most. Makes him feel lost when he's standing with a map, as if the guide book should be telling him the way when all it is, is in another language entirely. ]
Yeah, I know, I know- [ He hangs his head, runs his fingers through his hair in something like apology because like hell is he going to say those words (i'm sorry is reserved for the very few) and yet it's his problem in a nutshell. He's convinced he's running on empty with nothing left to give, that he can't even find himself amongst the two people who know where to look, and he's just so goddamn sorry that there's nothing else he knows how to say. ]
I got nothin' to bitch about.