( It's a safety net. A terribly easy safety net to fall into. Why fight to come out of something, alive and in pain, when you can simply die and be resurrected? It's too practical a solution to ignore.
But he's calling her closer and every tired, dully aching part of her would rather give in than think about death for one more second, and she drains her cup and places it down before finding a comfortable way to lie against him. She's too old, too exhausted, and they're too blissfully alone, to even attempt to pretend that his presence is anything but a balm.
(And it's moments like this when she remembers how much older she is than him, despite everything. That he'd barely be out of university if they were in any other world, or had any other lives. It's a strange thing to remember, and always makes her limbs stiffen just that little bit.) )
And do what?
( It's an honest curiosity, because they're not good at doing things by halves, are they? )
[The young man thinks about that for a few moments, tilting his cup from side to side and watching the way that the liquid shifts against the sides. For people like them, there aren't really any other alternatives, are there?]
I was being facetious. [He replies with a faint, humourless smile as he squeezes his arm around her shoulders.]
( He's somehow right about both things. That they shouldn't overdo it but they will. Before coming here, she hadn't exhausted her powers in years, and this marks the third time since arriving in Hadriel the first time.
How did she end up back into these habits? )
Dunno what we'd do.
( This is nice, and comfortable, and there are times she believes she could sit here with him for hours without getting restless, but it's no better to sink into easy contentment than it is to obsess over work. )
[Ignis, too, has always been surprised by how easy it is to sit down and not feel the need to fidget when he's with her. The time is valued, seen as more than worth the loss of what others might consider to be more valuable pursuits.]
But you should be careful... at least for a while. Can you promise you'll try?
( She's bound up in promises, isn't she? Whether to herself or her friends, to the remnants of memories of her family, to him. Kate purses her lips and finds a more comfortable angle leaned against him, the weight of so many things practically tangible on her shoulders. The weight of vows broken and kept and the weight of exhaustion, working because that's all she knows.
How long can anyone keep pushing themselves like this? How many times has she thought I'm tired, whispered it out as a cry to those few she's let inside her circle? )
Alright.
( Her head lolls against his shoulder once more, a million weights pulling her closer to another stretch of sleep. )
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But he's calling her closer and every tired, dully aching part of her would rather give in than think about death for one more second, and she drains her cup and places it down before finding a comfortable way to lie against him. She's too old, too exhausted, and they're too blissfully alone, to even attempt to pretend that his presence is anything but a balm.
(And it's moments like this when she remembers how much older she is than him, despite everything. That he'd barely be out of university if they were in any other world, or had any other lives. It's a strange thing to remember, and always makes her limbs stiffen just that little bit.) )
And do what?
( It's an honest curiosity, because they're not good at doing things by halves, are they? )
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I was being facetious. [He replies with a faint, humourless smile as he squeezes his arm around her shoulders.]
I can't imagine us doing anything else.
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How did she end up back into these habits? )
Dunno what we'd do.
( This is nice, and comfortable, and there are times she believes she could sit here with him for hours without getting restless, but it's no better to sink into easy contentment than it is to obsess over work. )
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[Ignis, too, has always been surprised by how easy it is to sit down and not feel the need to fidget when he's with her. The time is valued, seen as more than worth the loss of what others might consider to be more valuable pursuits.]
But you should be careful... at least for a while. Can you promise you'll try?
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How long can anyone keep pushing themselves like this? How many times has she thought I'm tired, whispered it out as a cry to those few she's let inside her circle? )
Alright.
( Her head lolls against his shoulder once more, a million weights pulling her closer to another stretch of sleep. )